January 14, 2007
January 17: Surgery Again
Julie - It’s amazing still to me that I have been thrown so deeply into the medical world that, within 11 months, I’ve already had three surgeries, have been given some of the most powerful and toxic medications on the planet, and take medication every day. And now I’m facing surgery again next week. It’s time to exchange the tissue expander for the breast implant. I anticipate it being relatively easy physically, compared to the other surgeries. And certainly not as emotional as surgeries that involve pathology reports and subsequent treatment decisions.
It’s hard to get ready to go back to surgery. Over the past few months, I’ve spent a lot of time consciously trying not to think about medical procedures. I’ve been escaping somewhat into a black hole of incubation, separating myself from myself and many of the people around me, as I recognize and evaluate changes and decisions. The past few weeks I’ve been terribly stressed with a peripherally- (not health-) related crisis that has taken a toll on my energy, sleep, and nutrition. I had some discussions with my husband and friends and made the decision to go ahead with the surgery as planned. But I have my work cut out for me to prepare for Wednesday.
With each of my previous surgeries I’ve used Peggy Huddleston’s Prepare for Surgery, Heal Faster techniques. So yesterday I clicked my iPod over to her relaxation/healing CD. “Find a comfortable position and close your eyes.” I was stunned by the level of anxiety that resulted hearing those words again. It’s been over five months since I listened to it in preparation for the mastectomy and it took me back to the time of diagnosis, surgeries with unknown outcomes, and chemotherapy treatments. Within moments, though, I settled into the familiar routine of progressive relaxation and visualizations. I will listen to it at least daily between now and Wednesday and it will be what I listen to as they wheel me into surgery and I get lost in the drugs of amnesia and anesthesia.
Ms Huddleston’s method involves many aspects of preparation and part of it includes calling in the support of friends and others. So I’ll ask, again, for healing, safe, loving thoughts from everyone – including you. Please send thoughts, energies and prayers to me on January 17th at around 10 am Eastern time. Thanks. And I’ll let you know how it goes.
I hope that you are well on your way to recovery...
Posted by: beka | Jan 19, 2007 10:44:21 AM
Support, love, encouragement in your continuing recovery — physically, mentally, emotionally, socially, and spiritually. I continue to hold you in prayer.
Posted by: Rev. Rob, in Canada | Jan 19, 2007 12:18:26 AM
Julie, My thoughts are with you. I dont know the time there but it is Thursday morning here and I have just read your blog. So many of us are travelling similar journeys,together we are stronger for our shared experiences. My best wishes for a speedy recovery.
Posted by: Jenny Australia | Jan 17, 2007 6:09:51 PM
Julie, It is 0950 on Wednesday morning, and I just pulled up Medscape. Your blog was the first thing I opened, and I was reminded once again of the interconnectedness of us all. I am grateful to have found your request in such a timely manner, and I am joining my prayers with the prayers of others, sending positive thoughts your way for safety, well-being, and a quick recovery. God bless you. Jean
Posted by: Jean Heslin | Jan 17, 2007 10:01:01 AM
I will definitely be praying for you. Don't spend a lot of time worrying about this surgery. It is a piece of cake compared to the others. I had this surgery Dec.21, 2005. The only problem was the inconvienence of surgery and having to decrease my weight lifting for six weeks. I just recently had surgery for the nipple-areola complex reconstruction. It went well and I am pleased with the results. May God bless you and give you a quick recovery.
Posted by: Karen Allred | Jan 16, 2007 11:14:38 PM
Julia,God wanted you to know that, He was wounded for your transgression. He was bruised for your iniquity, and by His strife you are healed. God is able to deliver, and I know that He is going to take you safely out of surgery. May the peace of God be with you always.
Posted by: jen | Jan 16, 2007 11:05:47 PM
Best wishes Julie !!! Our thoughts and prayers are with you. I don't know if this will help but try to focus on the GOAL at hand. You've shared so much of yourself, worked so hard, and endured so very much !!! You're a winner !!!
Posted by: Diane | Jan 16, 2007 6:04:27 PM
MY PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU IN ASKING FOR HEALING, PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, SPIRITUALLY AND EMOTIONALLY.
Posted by: Anita | Jan 16, 2007 10:27:28 AM
I will send prayers your way as I wheel into the surgery suite for my mastectomy about the same time. I will pray that the surgoens hands at both ends are steady and sure, and that the outcomes are wonderful for both of us. You have been my guide through some of my journey and I thank you. I know you will do very well! Go Girl!
Posted by: Ruth Coates | Jan 15, 2007 7:02:48 PM
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